It has been a long time since I made a post .
My comp died ,so I took a vacation from blogging for awhile.
Since Im back I have decided that I will try to write at least every other day just some little tidbit to remind myself ,that yes indeed I have a life . It,s as simple as I can keep it. With Four children and all. I am starting to weed out all of the un-necessary erands that we do . Like going to the store three times a day for things, some days . I am keeping an ongoing list of everything we need and or run out of at any given time . That way when we go we can just grab the list. Seems that nowdays when my husband asks on the spur of the moment what we need at the store, my mind draws a blank. And or I rattle off some things and forget something as important as Coffee.

It is getting colder and I just love this weather. Makes me feel more creative(weather it is working or not has yet to be seen). Im thinking about painting. Maybe curtains for the kitchen.

Yesterday evening my 4yr old booped his eye on our Labrador retrievers head.
When it happend we all heard this ...well what sounded like two skulls knocking together...not a good sound! He immediatly started crying.
We watched him for awhile and made sure he was ok. Decided to carve our two pumpkins while passing the time. He desided how the face would look on the large pumpkin and then our 14yo daughter decided to take the smaller of the two. They both turned out good.
He ended up being ok and was happy to be able to stay up way past his bedtime. We have yet to see what it looks like, as I write this at 2:30 in the morning. But its late, so off I go to slumber.
Praise the Lord for another day!
Blessings, Cynthia

Life is about change, starting over , struggles and work ,Husband, Children (in my case), washing clothes and dishes over and over again. And somewhere in between, time to play , relax and sleep.
Ultimately.... It's about God changing us from the inside out.
It's about me being able to say whatever your will Lord and not mine.....which would be to....well get comfey.
I am noticeing a pattern here. Whenever I feel I have made some headway in my relationships with others, namely my Husband. I start to feel somewhat like I have made it through such a difficult time in our relationship, that nothing could ever go that wrong again.
Then well.......sin happens and one of us says something we should not have~ and or dont say something we should have .
It's well,... I think the best word I can think of is a mess.
It gets to be a mess when we get sloppy and selfish . Lately its been more Him,but i've been in his shoes before.
However it is over and we Talked. He even said that he wasn't feeling very much like we were one flesh lately. I agreed, and we forgave each other.
So now I feel a huge relief about it all.

We had a fine day and spent some time outside with the kids.

Quote for the day " Love one Another"

Word of God Speak

I'm finding myself

at a loss for words.

And the funny thing is -

it's ok.

The last thing I need

is to be heard

but to hear

what you would say.

Word of God speak

would you pour down like rain

washing my eyes to see

your majesty

To be still and know

that you're in this place

Please let me stay and rest

in your holiness

Word of God speak

I'm finding myself

in the midst of you

beyond the music, beyond the noise

All that I need

is to be with you

and in quiet

hear your voice

Word of God speak

would you pour down like rain

washing my eyes to see

your majesty

To be still and know

that you're in this place

Please let me stay and rest

in your holiness

Word of God speak

I'm finding myself

at a loss for words

and the funny thing is

it's ok

Well its been some time since i made my last post and allot of things have changed and nothing has changed.
You may think that contradictory but its not.
Mostly it is what has been going on inside of me that has changed. My thoughts about not having the money to buy things I want, but realizing that I dont have to go without things I need. If I do not have it, God will provide if I need it. To not trust that God knows just what I need when I need it would be a huge mistake.
Just yesterday I was thinking ....how in the the world were we going to make it until payday. Then My sis calls and says she wants to give me some money because she felt led to do it. God just provided what we needed.
It took me a few minutes to realize that it was a direct answer to prayer.
I have prayed the same prayer before and we just struggled until payday, but the renewed strength and creativity in my meal planning was the answer I needed at that time. God will always give us exactly what we need.
So if that is true why do I complain?
I have tried time and time again to catch myself when I do this.
It just means I am not trusting in the providence of God.
That all things work for the good to those who love God.
I am hopeing that in the realm of my progressive sanctification, that I will learn not to complain, and trust that there are no mistakes. That the days will go according to plan.....His plan . That's the part that hasn't changed.

What I did today

Well my day was not all that interesting ... I cleaned my house.
May not sound very exciting,but I gave it the Super duper . You know that cleaning you do when the inlaws are coming?
My husband was glad though. I was thinking that I could do it more often.
Maybe twice a year! Ha Ha! No really, he thanked me for it.
Then He asked the same question he always asks when I do this.
"Will I be able to find all my stuff"
This time I did make it a point to put his things where he can find them.

Then I made Spegetti, with Italian Sausage in maranara sauce...yum.

Later we talked with the neighbors over the fence about the news of the day.
We finally went in after about an hour because the mosquitoes were "eating us alive" was the consensus.

It was a fine day all in all....The kids helped with the cleaning in the am and kept themselves busy after lunch so as not to provoke me to ask them to do anything
that had to do with cleaning.

So there you go.....Plain and Simple


Quote for the day:
We know that all things work together for good to them that love God.
Romans viii.28


Blessings Cynthia

Well yesterday went well, if you don't count the fact that there was a shootout that started by our house. It must have been around 6:00 pm when i heard the car come down our street and NOT stop at the corner (with the stop sign). He just flew through, hidro-plaining when he hit a bump in the road. Then as he neared the end of our street where the water towers are , I thought I was hearing back fire from his car. Nope! That was gunshots! Next only to see the police coming up on his heels, screaching down the street in their new Turbo powered sports cars. I watched them until they drove out of site . There were more gun shots from down the road. Beyond that I don't know what happend to the guy. If he is alive or not. It's not that I think theese
things can't happen in my neighborhood. Just that it never had until this point.
It was actually the highlight of my day. I was able to see people who never walk out of their homes. I mean I know they live there, but I never see them, and im out all the time. Not that anyone was having deep conversation or anything but it was interesting to SEE my neighbors. I often think about what life was like before air conditioning in Texas. Before cable TV with surround sound came out. I happen to think people probably talked to each other more. I think it still happens in some parts of this world today and maybe in your neighborhood.

Introduction

I'm not good at introductions and I tend to ramble on at times, but I will try.
Im Cynthia married to my husband for 18 years and
mother of four children ages 21,17,13, and 4.
I am 40 and am discovering that If im going to become more of anything i need to hurry up.
I have been a closet artist most of my life. I enjoy doing so many things, but don't do them because I am doing so much for the children,house husband etc...
All that is well and good.....But
I'm thinking....it's time for a change
The word "TAWANDA"comes to mind.
No I dont plan on doing any thing distructive...yet
And since I am a Christian woman wont be focusing on anything immoral.
Still love my husband, so won't be doin a Dolores Claiborne .
Just thought I should do some things that will nuture myself for a change.

So that's what this Blog is all about. Something for me.
Somewhere to talk about life and the people whom God has put in my life.
Somewhere I might vent, and share struggles.
Somewhere where I can Read and hear about others lives and perhaps....
learn a thing or two or three.

Cynthia